150

146.8, 34.3 post cleanse

147, 34.7 cleansing day 2

148.4, 34.8

Mess up

I totally over ate today. I have been hungry but have been controlling it. It started with breakfast where we had one little lonely piece of bread left that I added to my "snack" of a fried egg. I added all of the calories of this and and end up around 200 (not to mention I was feeling badly because I was not eating with my family.) Then I skipped lunch because the timing was off and dinner was all my childhood favorites of brats, burgers, chips, vegis and dip. While I felt like I was controlling myself I ended up with a 900+ calorie dinner. We make it home and I think I am doing okay...even brush my teeth...and I am putting the food away from the day at the cabin and I munch a little on granola, leftover vegis with dip and I see the taco meat. I think oh there is a 1/2 a tortilla left with cheese and jalapeños what could that harm so I ate that too. All through my head I have a war going on saying this isn't so bad your fasting tomorrow it will taste so good AND is this really going to taste that good and make you feel that good...no it will just make you feel guilty. I know I feel very guilty and want to blow my whole diet. I won't I already packed for my fast tomorrow but am mad at myself.

148.6, 36.1 went to dinner at River Inn

Not great choices

149.8, 34.8

150, 34.7 bloated

Pizza and popcorn last night

149, 35.1 post period, post cleanse

148.8, 36.1

153, 34.1 thirsty, bloated, monthly

156.4, 34.9

I am starting Isogenix today.  I am fatter then I have ever been and very frustrated.  I have been craving carbs and sugar all of the time and struggling to feel full. I want fit in my clothes and feel calm enough to be a good influence on my kids

156, 35.3